Monday, October 17, 2011

sucide opinion

you know. 'Everyone' says that committing suicide is terrible, to think about the people you leave behind, etc, etc...and me...

How Can You POSSIBLY say it's selfish of the person committing suicide, when THEY are the ones in pain! THEY are the ones at the end of their rope! THEY are the ones suffering!
YOU are going along your little life, living it as you see fit, MAYBE thinking that the 'suicider' is down, a little depressed, they can get through whatever emotional problem they have, or not even Noticing that the person is terribly depressed!

hell. i've been hiding depression from my family my whole fuckin' life! NO ONE takes me seriously, or even NOTICES, except to say... "You feelin' a little down today, sweetie?"

HA! yeh, a little down.


Thursday, September 8, 2011

I am still so depressed. I can not seem to comprehene that he is gone.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Trying the mobile sms.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

i'm in shock

i don't believe it. jim hamilton is dead. just yesterday, i was actually considering trying to contact him, and maybe hooking back up. at least talking with each other again. i really miss him.
laugh @ myself. /sarcastically/ i even had the nerve, to think, 'what if he's married?' and i had gotten so hurt, with that thought. hell! i'd rather that he were married, then he had died! and i can't find any one who knows anything about it. and my name phone is out of minutes.
jeeze. the fantasies i was creating. and he's dead.
god damn bastard.
how could he die on me? he's suppose to still be here, so we could be together again.
i really am alone now.